Imagining Janae As Ben's Big Sister

This morning I went grocery shopping with just Janae, while Ben stayed home and played outside with Daddy. I think this is the first time that's happened, although I've been out with just Ben lots of times. As I was pushing Janae in the stroller and talking to her, it got me thinking about how different Janae's life would have been if she had been born first instead of Ben. When Ben was a toddler, I took him everywhere with me, and we'd talk about what he was seeing. But when I go out with Ben and Janae, I usually still talk to Ben--mostly because he is talking nonstop, asking questions, etc.! Janae usually sings and chatters away, too, but it's more of a monologue. Janae is definitely more independent than Ben--probably because of things like this. The two love each other so much, and I don't wish things had been any other way, but today it just struck me that Janae's life might have been really different if she had been Ben's big sister instead of his little one.